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so I think I failed at staying a way from poems or even blogs
I the KFH king has returned on my new blog
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take a look its better then this bull crap
at lest I think so
its up to you to tell me

Palestine
The one and only true love of mine

50) The end

I was young and foolish
And then for the first time
I fill in love and then she left
I dyed, I lost the feeling of love
Now that I am older I realized
That it was only a crush and
I opened room for love and liking
Of some one else, how stupid was I
Only if I knew what it meant
And what will happen to me
I found some one that made
Me think what is love, I hid it
When it raised it I told her
And she could have killed me
If I was not strong, so what I did
I destroyed my own heart, I can't
Can not feel what any one means
To me, I don’t know if I will
Take the risk of feeling again
Good bye and good luck, feelings
I hope I will never go through
This again, my soul will rest

49) Starting over

It hurt at first just seeing you
Even afraid to say hi, I don’t know why
When you are around I feel a gap, a hole
Of hate and disliking for you
See the truth is that what filled
The gap between me and you
I will not fall to that level
I will kill any feelings of like and
Hate towards you and you'll see
There is nothing between us
It’s a new page to me we start
Over and where it takes us
I don’t care as long as we
Don’t think of the past
Me and you shall be friends
Or may it play in a different
Way just let it be

48) Accept and forgive

I realize now and only now
That I did not need you to like me
All I wanted was for you to know
And to accept the fact that I
Had feeling for you and to forgive me
I hope you can do what I did
And forget everything I did
All I wanted was to rest my soul
Now I did that’s all

47) When truth hit

I was standing in front of you
Blank like if nothing happened
The we went our ways different roads
And sat near a friend and then it happened
It hit me like a car all the thing you said
The way things will change, thing
That hurts me, its not what you think
Its some thing you will not understand
But I will get over you some time
You shall see the new me

46) Judgment day

Standing in front of the judge
The final ruling, no matter what
I think it comes down to one
It's you; you have the choice of saying
Yes or no, I stand in fear knowing
What you will say, so even if I
Know, I must rest my soul
So I tell you what I think
What I feel and then I ask
For you not to destroy my
Heart it has been destroyed
So you don’t care if you crush it
I cant breath, you crushed me
But I will get up and fight
Not for you, just because life
Must go on, I'll live my life

45) Gaining freedom

Standing ready to face my fait
I am nerves looking at the goal knowing
The results, this is some thing I must do
I feel like I have the world is over me
Can not breath can not speak
Then I do what I meant to do
I tell you and all the sudden I feel
Like the world over me became
Under my feet even though you
Say no, I feel rested, resting my soul
For give me for what I just did I
Just did it out of greed and nothing more
I got a new lie now I feel free
As a bird in the sky over the sea
Looking for a new fish to eat
But not as fast as before

44) Standing in fear

Nerves shot, filled with fear
Scared to the point I cant speak
Worried about what you will reply to me
I think of you and what will I say
I cant get my self to reply to those
Those acts that are in my head that I want
To tell you, I think good and bad
Out comes and the good weighs more
Then the bad, I stand tall, I am about
To tell you, I fear, I am scared because
I know the results.

43) It hurts

You are the cause of pain with in my broken heart
Destroyed by many how rejected me, you were telling me
How if feels to be but I know this from you see
I have almost the same feelings and causes me more
Pain then joy why is this tell me please if you know
I believe that you are the right one for me
I have loved and lost but you cause much
More pain with in me I hope you se it with in me
Can you like me, I hope so, because you are dear to me
The pain is from many things fear of you not having
The same feeling for me, your rejection of me
But I will face it and see what you say to me
I cant stand it just tell me if you want kill
My feeling to you just do it so it stays a way from
Me please oh please

42) Renewed feelings…

We went back to the way we were
And now you come to me and talk to me
The idea that returned got hold of me
I can not forget it this time because
They returned stronger to me, why
Did you do this, how can you do this
I cant stop thinking about it, cant get rid of it
I only wished you knew what I was thinking
When we talked I want to tell you
But I could not make my self to
Because I am afraid of you
I am weak around you and why
I shell tell you because the
One I was talking about was
You I don’t know if you
Know and that’s why you talked
To me or what’s the reason
All I know is that I will tell you
And hopefully if you reject me
We can be friends if that is
What is meant to be…

41) Strengthen beliefs

God I do believe in you
I know you do have a plan
You have put me through
Some hardships but you
Now are giving me a brake
And I see that you are good
Out weighs the bad
I do believe in what you
Have in store for me
You bring me things to help me
Forgive me for ever doubting
You because you are the greatest

40) Funny thing in life

I liked you and wanted to go out with you
Then you dised me I now know why
But ever\n now I see you and I like you
And know I think you gave me the hint
The hint that you like me too
But I am not sure so I will not
Not act on my feelings for you
We can be friends and may be we will
Find out what you think of me
And may be go out, make it be
What I wish it to be…

39) I cant stop

I am stunned I am amazed
I look in your eyes and gazed
Those eyes are beautiful
There locked on your face
Like my eyes on you
That hair of your all wavy
Like ripples in a beautiful lake
And those lips those cheery lips
I don’t know what to say
You are an attraction to me
Something I cant resist

38) Sad wishes

I smoke I drink I wish to die
All I want is to cry
My life is filled with hate
Every day I wish to die
But to my disappointment
I get up every day
My life is filled with pain
I cant inflict more on myself
Or I will hurt my self until
I die, but why, because of my life
I really wish to die

37) A wish that never been answered

Bad days are something I face everyday
Why is my life so messed up, sucks so much
I am sick of it I want some thing to go right
For a change and not to fail every day
And lose my faith in the idea of life
If only one day is good with some
Benefits I will forget all that happened
In the past, but that will never come
With this thing that happened to me
A small thing angers me the
Voice of some one the face of another one
Can’t stand my life, and the worst is the
Feeling of suicide or self inflicted pain
The wish of dieing every day
One day I will sleep and hopefully never get up

36) Cant find my way

Hello are you there answer me
I talked to you no response why
Is it because you hate me
Or is it because I’m not worthy
You told me to look at you
For the answer of life
But I get nothing back
When I asked you
I am losing my faith
Because of this
Make me feel you that you exist
I some time wonder why should
I care about something that
That does nothing for me
I ask for your help but
All I get is silence from you
Please if you want me to fail
Kill me finish this life that
Has no worth, I am confused
Please forgive me for questioning you

35) Stay away everyday

I used to want to be with you
Now all I want to do is hurt
You every time I see you
The way you effected me changed me
For this I hate you I will like to
Do evil things to you hurt you
I cant believe the way I thought
About you, I saw you as some thing
Now you are the cause of my bad days
I cant go one day with out seeing you
That makes me mad I cant stand you
Why I even writing about you
I don’t know , its maybe because
I hate you and I wish not to see you
If I hear your name one more time
I may kill you, stay away from
Me T

34) Speechless

I was in an area with lots of people
And then you came next to me
Then there was only you and me
I see you next to me and I look at you
And what do I see is an angel next to me
The beauty of the world gathered next to me
I have seen beauty before but not like you
You seem to be something that’s only seen in dreams
Your beauty makes me a mute, can’t speak
You stun me, I want to talk to you but I am scared to
I am going to regret not saying something to you
But I wish tell you what effect you have on me
Now that the time past and you leave me
I cant wait to see you again and if I do
I will not think twice I will just talk to you

33) Different person

We were friends in the past
Close friends at least to me
You left and came back
And now I see that your
You’re pushing me away, what happened
Please talk to me, tell me
What is wrong, what has changed
Between you and me
Or is it between all, I don’t see
I want to know because your
Dear to me a friend
You are to me please tell me

32) blind

I have been given a name
That belongs to the one that
Named me it, it hurts
Me to be called such a thing
How do they live fooling them
Self’s to the point they believe it
With in there hearts they believe
It makes me sad to see that sight
People that have no mind
The ones that are blind
I will try to open their eyes

31) Case and effect

Hate is something with in me
And when it comes out
It comes out in evil forms
If there was a way to get rid of it
I would because its my fault
The hate that is with in me
The rage and hate that is with in me
It is evil and sinful, that I must
Fight to keep it in, but away
There are those things that make
It come out, another person’s
Hate, I cant stand them
Rage that makes me rage
And crazy evil thoughts fill
My mind, why is the question that I
I don’t know to answer

30) Lasting forever

A conflict between two
Over something that means so
Much too both sides of the problem
Both think of them self
Have the right side which is them
And then another comes to solve
This problem that is there between
The two that have been battling
The idea of compromising is fake
Always one loses through this idea
That is surely not the answer
It’s the way to shut them up for some time
But it will always be there in their mind
The conflict is to great to forget
And it will return and the one
That gains the most will always
Have more power in the renewed
Conflict due to compromise

29) Indeed evil

I have the urge to do some thing
That one should not do, a sinful act
Some believe that it’s an natural
But the sin of killing is indeed evil
Why it runs though my mind
Can not be explained by any
To cause such harm is hard
But when one is pushed to a point
That, that idea seems reasonable
In the mind of a crazed
Mans mind that has been destroyed
I wander if I should but I know
I know is wrong in every way
I hope to remove this from me
And cancel this evil idea so
That I can become a better
Human and not destroy my self

28) Second chance

I see you there from far away
I think for a second can I continue
Form where we left off or act like nothing happened
It's been so long that I feel in love with
With the idea of just talking to you again
And when you come close I believe that
I can try all over again finally
And be with you the one
That I want to be with
I already know that what I have
Lost and now I got a chance
To grab it and keep it with me
And put it in my heart
Where you are always safe
And near me and I can't
Can not lose you, but if
If some one takes you
You will destroy my heart
And kill me so I decide not to
I will leave you and may be
I should for get you

27) What I am now and then

I am not the same as in my past
I am a total different person now
I don’t like how I am, why the way I am
If I can return back to my self in the past
I will agree so fast that I would get whiplash
I returned to the old ways for a short time
And saw who I was and who I am
I prefer who I was because I was fun
Life was only fun, now its not the same
May be it’s the atmosphere, who I was around
I don’t know but I will find out and join the two
And make my life what I want, no matter what

26) Confused but made up my mind

Why, why is this happening?
I did not need this to tell you the truth
We were there and now I want more
From this littlie thin I fear to destroy
Every thing we had or it can grow
But I am confused about the thing
That goes through my head I don’t feel
Feel the same no more, I want more
I guess I will go throw this
Idea that is going through my mind

25) Letting go

Why do I live under this tortured
Many people have already given up
To the enemies and left they cant take
Take what happened to us, daily I think
Why don’t I get out then I remember that
This is my land and my people that I cant ignore
I cant forget, I cant let down, my loyalty is here
Above my birth place I was born some where else
But his is where I was raised, to let go is like
Like letting go of my sole and doming my self
To a life of regret and pain

24) Some thing I can get rid of

I live with you for some time
I love you from the depth of my heart
But at the same time I hate you
For what you did to me and the way
The ways you hurt me, but its you
You how made me who I am
I will live with you forever
And I will fight for you, and even
Die for you if I need to, to save you
You mean more then what I show to you

23) Feeling sorry be for the action

I feel vary weird for some thing
Some thing I did not do
I feel sorry for the plan in my mind
They should not be with in me
It just feels wrong if I go throw
I can destroy some thing and harm
Vary badly if I do what's in my mind
I don’t know if I will do this thing
It just feels so wrong

22) Different

I was blind in the past
I am begging to like you
There is some thing about you
It’s the dark side that makes me like you
Some thing about you arrack me
I feel some thing new with in you
Not like any other girls I knew
That’s because you're different then them
We connect some how, I know what
It weird me out that thing about you
But we cant due to who we are
And a fear of destroying what we have
I must be crazy to want to be with you
But I do

21) Battle in my head

What am I doing, I fear for what I am doing
Am I listing to the devil or am I him
For what I am doing no worse then what he does
But this is not a question in my mind
It is about the evil I do and to what extent
What extent will I be willing to go?
Will I do what I am planning or will I stop
Will the struggle between god and evil
End and who will be victors the good or the evil
But what ever wins the battle in my head
I will become, don’t even know
I know they are both there but which have control
Control over what I do in my life or am I
Going to die with out knowing and only then
I will know when I look back on the past
And see what good and evil deeds I did
But by then it will be too late to change myself
I don’t really know even who I want to win
Do I want to be good or to be evil?
This is a struggle of man kind and
After this battle it will truly show to me
Who I really am but by then I could have
Harmed to many souls with these deeds of mine
So I fight for control over myself, nether good nor evil

20) Until its lost

I had what I wanted
And I was to blind to see it
So I lost it from stupidity
Now that I lost it will I
Will I ever find it
I realize only now how
Much it meant to me
I guess this is life
We don’t know what some
Some thing is worth to us
Until we lose it and
Will probably never find it again
You may find something
Close to it but not it
So when I find something
With the worth of what I lost
I will grab it and never
Let it out of my sight

19) Bad feeling

What wrong with me
I mess up anything I do
Most of the time it does
Not change anything for me
But when it involves others
I always feel bad
I think why I am like this
It’s the worst feeling that
That one can get in his life
Sometime I feel so bad
That I wish upon myself the worst
Things that no one wishes on
Ones self, pain and wishing of death
And then I remember it's only a mistake

18) Rest tonight

I don't feel myself any more
I start to wonder what to do
Maybe it's time to rest my soul
I will go a sleep I don't know
I will put my head down
And when I get up no one knows
Maybe I will get up soon maybe tomorrow
I don't know how long I will rest
In the same place I will stay
And we don't know what the next day will bring
So maybe I will never get up

17) True beauty

I look in your eyes into your soul
I see your true beauty and not what shows
Not like if you are not the most beautiful under the sun
When I see you there is some thing
More beautiful then you it's your soul

16) it me or is it you

Do you feel what I do when I see you?
Does joy fill your heart a makes it stop
Do you feel like the day has became much better
And all your problems all fade away, leaves you
And don't want to leave the place we are in
I know I want to keep you by my side
So that I feel like this forever, never like before

15) Feeling dead or alive

I feel like if I was dead
Disappointment after disappointment
But I know that you are some where
And when I talk to you I feel alive again
I will cry when you leave me
Because will for surely die without
You near me when I am down which is
Why I like you because you remove my pain
Which is inside of me, you are my life

14) Warmth of your heart

I am sitting in the cold
I want to be warm
So I close my eye
Think of you, your smile
You have a warm heart
And you know that you have
A place with in my heart
That makes me warm under
The mountain of snow
The warmth of me because
What you mean to me
Melts the snow
And I see you once again

13) Time with out you

I haven’t seen you for days now
All I want to do is see
See your beautiful face
The one that makes me smile
The way you smile the way you talk
Time pass for the longest time
And I don’t mind with you by my side
When you are away its feels like for ever

12) Heavenly presence

You walked by just now
I wiped my eyes to see if I an dreaming
I can’t believe what I am seeing
The beautiful angel
And I am seeing it walk by
I almost wish I can die
So I can go to heaven and see you
See you walk by me again
Why can something so heavenly
Be on this earth walking by

11) Problems led to

During hardships we learn about how we should be
Life for me most likely was worst for me
Then a problem came to me and I changed
I dealt with it and destroyed it now it’s working for me
Life is good everything is falling in to place
So why complain about what happened
Nothing can destroy it, it is the best
Life is perfect in these eyes of mine
Deal with our problems prefects our life

10) Wishing of changing the past

If I had more then one life what would I correct?
Would I want to correct my life?
Has been fill with problems and mistakes
I don’t really regret my mistakes that I had in the past
Yes I may have done things in different ways
But they are my mistakes that made me who I am today
What the point of that anyways
In problems I become stronger and in mistakes I learn

9) Nothing in return

I saw you and I liked you
And when I got to know you
I wanted to be with you
More and more I got to know you
The more I like you
I gave you hints but
You gave me none, even if
If I told you, you feel the same
Maybe I pushed to much
To the point that you stopped
Liking me, stopped talking to me
I am sorry for feeling this way
I don’t know some thing may happen
And you start liking me some day
Until that day I wait

8) The first

I remember that one girl
The one I can never forget
I remember I liked her
From the first sight of her
Before that I never believed
In the old English saying
Love at first sight
Why it happened to me
I don’t know what to say
I think of her every day
Looking at her picture I want to cry
What I had and what I lost

7) Angel eyes

Smack eye to eye with angel eyes
My heart drops from my chest
And poetry fills my mind
And love makes me blind in this room
I am alone with you and I forget
Forget everything but you those eyes
They drive me crazy for single second I think
About many things but if I should wake up
From this trance I don’t think I can handle it
Is it a trance or am I in love

6) What you mean to me

The day I meat you the sky was blue
Before it was gray the day you came in my life
Every day is a better day when I don’t talk to you
These days are no better then those gray days
But now I know you
Our relationship is what makes life better
The day that I never hear your voice
Is like a trumpet that gives life
I can't stand not talking to you even for a day
I miss you talking to you as soon as we say bye

5) A place with in me

What happen to me?
When I heard what happened
I felt like some thing that
Happened deep with in me
You mean so much to me
You have a place in my heart
Even if you don’t believe me
It’s the truth what you mean to me

4) Your power on me

In my mind I see you
But you are not my type
Why do I like you?
I never thought that
That I can like
Some one like you
But once again I like you
There is some thing about you
That makes every one like you
Your beauty makes me fall
Now that I am at my knees
Tell me if you like me

3) Your worth

I never seen a day better then the ones with you in it
And without you it is not worth it
Every day with you is like being the king of the world
You are the queen the head of my state
You are the one that makes great days
And makes it worth getting up in the morning

2) Why and What I Will Do

I believe that life does not like me
The way it treats me
Punishing me for every thing
I wander why me
And then again it may not be life
Just me do I hate me
To the point that I destroy
My life subconsciously
I don’t know but I will fight
Fight until the last breath I take
I will never give up that’s not me
If I must fight for my life
I will and not die a second before
I reach the goal that I want to achieve

1) I Feel

I see you in my eyes
The beauty that’s with in you
The way you make me feel
With one look I know I can die
Die happily looking at you
Why do I put my self though this
You have denied me the right
But now I can’t stop thinking about
The way you make me feel
That smile of yours when you laughed
Why can I not get you out of my mind?
I get up every day and I wish that I stop
Stop thinking about you
Knowing that you never feel the same